daved,
LONG TIME NO WRITE! i just wanted to pop in and say i'm so happy. i'm a pretty pessimistic person, so i usually give people about 2 months before i find out what's wrong with them or vice versa, but nope! i still feel the same way, and you give no indication that you feel any differently. you treat me with the same patience and wonder that you did the first week we met, and i think that's so heartwarming. i'm so used to being a manic pixie dream girl or a shiny new toy for people. honestly, i kind of live my life in constant vigilance for any sign that the new toy feeling wears off. yet, apparently it hasn't?
i've noticed that you don't go anywhere when i try to isolate or pull away. i know i shouldn't be doing that in the first place, but i hate bringing the mood down for everyone, and i would rather suffer in silence if it's no big deal. yet, if i say i'm going to bed because secretly i want to be depressed by myself, you stop what you're doing and lay down too. if i feel a little weird, you voluntarily reaffirm your feelings for me. it's so sweet. i don't think anyone has done that for me before. it's not that everyone else sucked, but that you go above and beyond. i'm so grateful for you. you really came into my life at the time i needed you the most. i've told you this before, but meeting you has strengthened my faith. everything--family, love, career, friendship--has started falling into place around my birthday, and you are no coincidence. i suffered so much until 2025, and, the way everything has played out, it was all preparation for this new life i'm meant to live. with you!